The two lines that hang around in my head most from the poem in the last post are these:
'It's horrible to know yourself
But better to be true'
I think about them quite a bit because although they look kind of simple (and they are simple) they are also fairly tricky at the same time. It is perhaps a bit of a counselling-culture obsession (trying to know yourself) and many people (especially some writers, I'm sure) would say it's impossible, a waste of time, a simplistic nonsense...but then sometimes the harder or more impossible something is the more we want to do it (don't we?). Do we give up that easily? Are we wimps?
So, rather than a long post (all about me...) all I'm going to post today is a series of questions. You don't have to answer any of them here...really they're just things to think about...but what I really don't want are quick, smart answers that mean nothing (hell, I could come up with them myself). So here you are...have a think on some of these:
Do you think that you know yourself in any sense? Do you care? And if you don't care...why is that?
Do you like yourself much?
What would you change about yourself if you could (and I'm talking personality...not physical changes)? And if there is something you would like to change...why haven't you just got on and changed it? What's stopped you?
When you look in a mirror do you smile or flinch (again...it's the concept of yourself that I'm thinking about here more than your physical attributes...though they may be linked)?
Do you really treat people the way you'd like them to treat you? What always?*
Do you think you've contributed anything positive to the societies that you've lived in? Do you think that matters anyway?
What do you find really, really difficult?
If you are a person who writes then why is that? Think about the reasons and which ones are the most significant to you (practising honesty to the point of death!).
OK, that will probably do for now. January always seems to have me in this tiresome, why-what-how mood (birthday approaching and other factors no doubt). It will pass. Bear with.**
*Sainthoods available on request.
**If you watched the BBC sitcom 'Miranda' this reference will mean something to you. Otherwise...not a chance.
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